diary of a dysfunctional doll

relax

03.10.05 (5:46 pm)

did you ever get the feeling that you were having "one of those days" and before you knew what hit you "one of those days had turned into "one of those months"?

nate threw the worst tantrum hes had so far tonight. i'm still not sure why, i'm just glad its over, and i dont care to discus it. afterwards, my nevers were so shot that i actually started breaking out in hives. after i put him to bed, i decided i needed to relax, so i sat here and smoked a cigarette and thought about how to go about relaxing. i decided a nice hot bubble bath, with a waterproof toy(i'm not going into details here), candles, and afterwards a glass of wine and a tori amos cd would do the trick. i really didnt think i was asking for too much. i had forgoten that i was doing a load of dishes in the dishwasher, so i hardly had any hot water left, i'm out of bubble bath, the batteries in my toy were just about dead, and the wine i bought last week is more like a wine cooler and i cant stand it. so instead of my perfect relaxing evening, i took a mildly warm bath, i tried to use my sons bedtime bath stuff but it didnt bubble and now i smell like nates butt, i gave up on the toy all together and i'm now sitting here with my candles, drinking beer (yuck) and listening to tori. its ok i guess, but i'm really starting to wonder why everything keeps going wrong.

i started working on a new layout tonight. i love the girl on this one, but i couldn't find another one like her that fit what i was looking for. i think this layout is too pink, and too cluttered, the next one will be better i hope.

posted by: FinalyFree
post date: 03.10.05 (7:12 pm)

lmao@ you smelling like Nate's butt!! oooohhh that is just too funny chicklet! Make a list for town tomorrow: wine, adult buble bath, adult bath toy, more candles! lol

posted by: dysfunction1018
post date: 03.10.05 (7:41 pm)

Reply to: FinalyFree
yeah, i'm already on it! i wrote the list before i even wrote the blog! lol

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100... no, wait, 80 things you might like to know about me:
1. i love being a mom.
2. i love being married, but i hate being a navy wife.
3. my son is 6 months old.
4. i am terrified of dogs.
5. i have two chihuahuas.
6. i get frustrated very easily.
7. my dogs are not always well behaved, especially when other people are around.
8. my son is only well behaved whenever other people are around.
9. i love them anyway.
10. i hate the military.
11. i married my husband anyway.
12. i know close to nothing about his job.
13. not even his rate or rank.
14. i like it that way, but other people think i'm weird.
15. i love tori amos.
16. and ani difranco.
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18. i dye my hair red.
19. i've been dying it since i was 15
20. my hair has been gray since around the same time i started dating my husband, when i was 19.
21. my husband and i started "talking" on august 29th 2002.
22. we became a real couple on oct. 19th 2002.
23. we were married on oct. 18th, 2003. my 21st b-day.
24. my sons due date was aug. 28th, 2004.
25. he was born or august 22 tho, so the coincidence ends there.
26. my favorite color is purple.
27. i was born in philly, but moved to virginia when i was 4.
28. i live in CT now, cause home is where the navy sends me.
29. my husband is almost 10 years older than me.
30. he acts 10 years younger than me.
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32. i like the beach, but the water is nasty, and i hate sand.
33. one of goals in life is to go to a beach with clear blue water.
34. i dream of going to new orleans someday.
35. i have a sneeking suspicion than new orleans in my dreams is the way it was along time ago, and going there today would probably be quite a shock to me.
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38. i fell in love with my husband when he convinced me to have kids.
39. i never wanted children, but i love my son more than life.
40. i am shy, but you wouldn't know it if you knew me.
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42. girls piss me off.
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71. i try not to have unrealistic goals in life.
72. sometimes i cry in the shower for no reason.
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