i've decided to quit smoking. i've been thinking about it for along time, but i decided this is it. i just don't feel like it anymore. i'm on my last pack of cigarettes right now, tomorrow i start the patch. tonight i'm deep cleaning. we only smoke in our bed room (i know, with the baby we shouldn't smoke inside at all but we leave the window open, a fan on, and the door is always shut, and its very rare that we even smoke there) but it seems like i can smell cigarettes everywhere in the house. even when we only smoked outside (which is where *i* still do most of my smoking) i could smell it on the furniture from before we had the baby, when we still smoked inside. clothes all smell, even tho i have a jacket that i only wear to smoke, the car stinks, and, well, you get the point. there are ashtrays and lighters, and crap that reminds me of smoking everywhere. i'm getting rid of all of it tonight. ofcourse i'll be saving the zippo i got for christmas, but it will now be used for a better reason, lighting yummy smelling candles! i plan to febreeze everything, and i've already washed all the walls, and done a ton of laundry (i havent smoked inside but maybe once since my hubbys been gone, and that was weeks ago, so i've been working on the laundry for awhile). i've been so busy getting ready to quit that i've hardly had time to even think about a cigarette all day today. i know i can quit, i just havent really wanted to. i stopped smoking while i was pregnant, but the day i came home from the hospital i started again. i never said i "quit" then, just "stopped" cause i had to. i think thats my biggest problem, i dont respond well to doing anything on someone elses terms. i think i can do it now tho, cause its on my terms, for my reasons. i feel good about this. lets just wait and see if i still feel good about it in afew days, lol.
posted by: Caper
post date: 03.15.05 (4:30 pm)
Good luck i hope you do well!
posted by: Alaric
post date: 03.15.05 (5:23 pm)
Good luck on quitting smoking. I've never been in your position, so I can't empathize. Either way, I know you can do it, especially with how much effort to seem to be putting into it.
posted by: Roxgirl
post date: 03.15.05 (6:50 pm)
Good decision!!!
Snoking is terrible and so harmful to small children!!! (not to mention YOURSELF!!!)
You will NEVER regret quitting smoking!!! :) The best thing you can do, really!!!
I know you can do it!!!
posted by: dysfunction1018
post date: 03.15.05 (8:47 pm)
thanks for your support guys. i decided to get a jumpstart, and put the patch on tonight so i hopefully wont wake up wanting a cigrette, so far its workin pretty good i guess.
posted by: newbie
post date: 03.16.05 (6:26 am)
I quit smoking after 30 some years on January 1. If I can do it, you most certainly can. I for one can't understand how you could quit while pregnant (I couldn't) and then start again. There's a good web site for quitting smoking which I often frequented and still do. It's again stopsmokingcentre.com. Lots of assistance there. I linked to your blog from Roxgirl's, by the way. You go girl, I wish I had tried to quit when my children were younger but....that's life.
posted by: FinalyFree
post date: 03.17.05 (9:09 am)
YAY! Good luck to you. Sunflower seeds and Halls cough drops got me through all the rough spots, lol.
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1. i love being a mom.
2. i love being married, but i hate being a navy wife.
3. my son is 6 months old.
4. i am terrified of dogs.
5. i have two chihuahuas.
6. i get frustrated very easily.
7. my dogs are not always well behaved, especially when other people are around.
8. my son is only well behaved whenever other people are around.
9. i love them anyway.
10. i hate the military.
11. i married my husband anyway.
12. i know close to nothing about his job.
13. not even his rate or rank.
14. i like it that way, but other people think i'm weird.
15. i love tori amos.
16. and ani difranco.
17. i wanted to give you a more interestingprofie than the normal "name age location" thing.
18. i dye my hair red.
19. i've been dying it since i was 15
20. my hair has been gray since around the same time i started dating my husband, when i was 19.
21. my husband and i started "talking" on august 29th 2002.
22. we became a real couple on oct. 19th 2002.
23. we were married on oct. 18th, 2003. my 21st b-day.
24. my sons due date was aug. 28th, 2004.
25. he was born or august 22 tho, so the coincidence ends there.
26. my favorite color is purple.
27. i was born in philly, but moved to virginia when i was 4.
28. i live in CT now, cause home is where the navy sends me.
29. my husband is almost 10 years older than me.
30. he acts 10 years younger than me.
31. i love summer.
32. i like the beach, but the water is nasty, and i hate sand.
33. one of goals in life is to go to a beach with clear blue water.
34. i dream of going to new orleans someday.
35. i have a sneeking suspicion than new orleans in my dreams is the way it was along time ago, and going there today would probably be quite a shock to me.
36. i'm afraid of the dark.
37. i love walking in the rain in the summer.
38. i fell in love with my husband when he convinced me to have kids.
39. i never wanted children, but i love my son more than life.
40. i am shy, but you wouldn't know it if you knew me.
41. i'm a bitch and i know it.
42. girls piss me off.
43. my life is one binge after another, i going on cleaning rampages, i get obbsessed with blogging, i spend days at a time doing just one thing, and then i move on.
44. i hate that about myself.
45. i'm 22 years old and i sleep with a stuffed bear.
46. i have panic attacks when i drive.
47. i hate big crowds of people i dont know.
48. i love big crowds of my friends.
49. i don't drive much.
50. i loved the movie "Donnie Darko" but after watching it 13 times i still don't have a clue what happened or what it was about.
51. if you could explain it to me i'd be thrilled.
52. i'm dyslexic.
53. i read at a college reading level when i was in 7th grade.
54. i used to be pagan. now i'm not religious.
55. i don't think of myself as a pessimist but others would say i am.
56. i have low expectations to avoid being dissapointed, but i'm happy when things exceed my expectations.
57. i have a very large vocabulary, but i dont use it much because i'm afraid of being misunderstood.
58. i compleatly forgot what i was going to say here.
59. i am a horrible speller.
60. i remember now.
61. i type using 2 fingers on my right hand, but i'm pretty fast and i know where all the keys are... most of the time.
62. my husband makes a perfect omlet.
63. he tried to teach me how, but mine are always ugly.
64. i want ever product i have ever seen an info-mercial for.
65. i hate being compared to other people.
66. i dont understand how the same man who on rare occasion says or does something that takes my breath away and makes me feel whole and safe and wonderful, is the same man who pisses me off so easily by leaving his boots at the botom of the stairs where he knows i'll trip on them or forgets to put the toilet seat down so i fall in when i pee in the middle of the night.
67. i dropped out of college because i was bored.
68. i have clear memories of a trip i took to england when i was 4 years old, but i can't remeber where i put the keys this morning.
69. i met my husband, the love of my life, working in a deli.
70. i loved him the second i saw him, but it took us almost 2 years to get together.
71. i try not to have unrealistic goals in life.
72. sometimes i cry in the shower for no reason.
73. i used to cry every day. now i hardly ever let anyone see me cry.
74. i have never farted in front of my husband, i don't think i am physically able to.
75. i want to be great at something.
76. i dont know what.
77. i like rap, alternative, and countless other types of music.
78. i'm bored.
79. i'm 22, and i have a 14 year old step daughter.
80. my goal was to think of 100 things about myself to tell you here, but i'm tired, so i'll quit while i'm ahead.
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